This is true, XX, but the answer is more complicated than this.
The first and most important thing to do, is to blend completely with the
hurt. Be like a swimmer who finds a warm current and decides to very carefully
centre their whole body in it, not for instance, just the foot that first
contacted it. Swimmers carefully arrange themselves into the warm stream,
slowly, slowly, slowly, until every part of the body is bathed in the
warmth.
Now hurt is like that. I slowly arrange myself into blending with this triggered pain
until it and are one. Then, I stay there,
opening, opening myself to it slowly, slowly. When this congruence is
achieved, I hold it as long as the energy flows. If I do nothing more than
this, the pain will dissipate.
But there is more that can be done. One can allow a memory to appear from
within the pain, and soak in the pain and the memory both at the same time,
seeing how the pain was originally generated, and how it repeats each time
I am hurt. This does not mean that the present pain is not real; it just
shows the psychogenic overlay of old hurt on the new.
I could go even further and speak some short words or phrases that can
mirror or carry the hurt. Thus, I allow it to combine with my cerebral
symbolizing functions, and then in addition this promotes the pain reduction
through activating the conscious muscular systems of the body's vocal
chords. Also, this making of words and sounds allows the brain to hear
externally, what it, up to now, has only heard internally. This not only
neutralizes tension within, but sends that tension outwards and away from
its bound and hidden internal forms.
I could use this pain to show me what it means to be a biological organism
and how we suffer from that simple fact.
I could go even further and use the pain to conduct a search for the meaning of pain in our existence to try and find if, in fact, there is any.
As long as the pain is active in me, it will drive my searches deeper and
deeper, wider and wider and my over all consciousness will increase year by
year as I continue this process.
Feeling and body oriented inner searches are so much richer than the pablum
brigade would have us believe.
Their beloved warm soup of infantile experience misses the whole great
point, the power the depth and the breadth, and in short, the full potential
of the feeling and body-oriented search.
It is the therapist's inability to face the abyss/the void/the nothingness, and
their ultimate impotence, that causes them, in their search for power through ego
centered knowing and the seeming control that it brings, to glom on to
the "safe" points of infantile trauma, where they seduce themselves and
their clients with the "safety" of their knowledge.
In this way Primal becomes the new religion. It also becomes the new
defense.
Paul Vereshack
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